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Thursday, August 20, 2009

Coloring...

...is so incredibly therapeutic. I've been coloring a lot recently because I've noticed how much it really relaxes me. Seriously, guys.  Try coloring.


First and foremost, I want to thank you all again for EVERYTHING you have done for me thus far. I would not be sitting on this bed in an inpatient clinic for eating disorders if it weren't for you. From the bottom of my heart, the phone calls, texts, e-mails, flowers, cards, and packages have been overwhelmingly therapeutic. You are my inspiration and motivation to demolish ED. ED, by the way, is the name I've given to the disorder. It's the part of my brain that creates all thoughts related to the disorder. Then there's the other, "special" part of my brain known as my rationality. Thankfully, that's still in check.. for now.

Let's play the "Good News/Bad News" game.

Good news: I can be reached via phone, e-mail, mail, and by person.  Yes! I'm allowed to have visitors, finally!!

Address:
The Medical Center at Princeton (EDCI-B1)
253 Witherspoon Street
Princeton, NJ 08540
Visiting Hours: Mon-Fri 7-830pm, Sat-Sun 2-5pm and 7-830pm

Bad news: I'll probably be here a while. Taking a medical leave from Pitt was the hardest decision I've ever made. But, it's all the more motivation for me to beat this and be healthy enough to return for spring semester.

Also, you might find it weird that I'm so open about all of this. However, I've found that it's extremely therapeutic to talk (or type) about it because it allows me to organize and work through all the stress and anxiety-provoking thoughts running through my head. And please, feel free to ask questions. I'm a pretty open and honest person.

With that said, I'm not ashamed of where I am in my life right now. I truely believe everything happens for a reason and I will learn a lot from this entire experience. It's just another phase in my life that will pass with time. One day at a time. That's my new motto (although sometimes I have to simplify it to one meal at a time... or one hour at a time).

Furthermore, once I am released and on a healthy track I really hope to make the most out of my experience with this disorder. There should not be 12 year olds in rehab for anorexia and bulimia.  Seriously, what is wrong with the world we live in? I want to engage in public advocacy for teens by, not only sharing the life-threatening dangers and extremely common prevalence of eating disorders, but also by sharing my journey.  I want others to know that recovery is a long journey and others won't be able to understand what they're going through.  They will feel like their lives are worthless and all hope is lost, but there is an Emerald City waiting at the other end.  We are all beautiful.  We are all worth it.  This message is crucial.  I also want to take advantage of my experience with ED and get involved with research on eating disorders.  I'm fascinated by nerdy stuff like brain development and the crazy ways our bodies and minds function.

I want you to do me a favor today.  Give the next person you see a compliment.  Eat a nutritious, hearty dinner with a friend or relative, and sleep soundly in your own beds.

1 comment:

  1. rebecca,

    You are so, so brave and i cannot ever express enough how proud I am of you. I know this is hard, but you are such a strong girl and you will be able to defeat this. And in no way should you be ashamed of what you're fighting; we all get sick, we all get vulnerable, we all have faults. I was never one to be ashamed of my issues either and was (and still am) always open about it, and it is extremely therapeutic. I'm going to send you something, I just don't know what yet, I want it to be good :) so be prepared!!! Haha, wish I was home to see you. Get/feel better pretty girl!!!!

    -sharrah

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