Sometime in the last 6 months I forgot who I was--who I AM. I've spent so much energy and focus on the disorder that the characteristics and values that make me up as a person have been suppressed. This disorder isn't me, nor an important part of my life. I've lost a deep connection to my spirituality, religion and aspirations/goals. I am Jewish, American, spiritual, passionate and a sucker for romance. I am motivated and dedicated and my experience in Israel has helped form this description of myself. My spirituality and faith guide me through life and helps make up who I am. Yes, I may have great set-backs, failures, rejections and too high of expectations, but my motivation and passion towards music, volunteering and relationships have given me a sense of pride- as well as dreams and goals for the future. My values are congruent with my goals and must not be forgotten, for I must utilize them to keep me healthy and able to reach my goals. Each value is of equal importance, and if I act upon my morals and self-determination, I can get back to the person I AM.
I thought about someone this morning for the first time in a while. I thought about how I felt when i was with this person and helped me rediscover some of my strengths, inner beauty and passion. And it truly warmed my heart and soul. So, thank you for the reminder.
I must focus on my self-identity today.
"It’s not about how to achieve your dreams. It’s about how to lead your life. If you lead your life the right way, the karma will take care of itself. The dreams will come to you."- Randy Pausch