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Monday, August 31, 2009

Wicked times

1. This post is dedicated to my very good friend, Jill. No explanation necessary :)
2. Whoever sent me the orchid: THANK YOU. It is the most stunning purple plant.  However, there was no card so I don't know who to thank!

I am so grateful for the community here. The girls and guys are an incredible support system for me, and for each other. All this time I thought I was alone on this journey until I arrived at Princeton's EDU. So many of us are going through the same hurdles and we share similar stories and challenges. I genuinely feel like I'm in the right place and I thank them for comforting me through every obstacle I have been presented with.

With that said, I need to be honest and mention that I received bad news this morning.  I probably won't make pass this weekend which means I'll be stuck here in the EDU.  All weekend.  Joy.  To be brutally blunt, I am extremely annoyed at the nutrition team and their methodology.  I understand they want us to gain weight so we can be healthy again.  Nonetheless, I believe there can be a healthier process.  Like, why can't the team introduce us to heart healthy fats, such as almonds or nuts?  Why not provide us with healthy grains, including quinoa or couscous?  Furthermore, I was never the kid eating snack and "junk" foods, so how is this experience supposed to help me once I'm back in the real world, needing to make real life nutritional decisions?  I am adamant in believing they are not attending to individual needs or providing us with the most sensible methods of weight gain.  Additionally, I'm frustrated because yesterday we played Bingo in nutrition class.  Really?  Bingo?  I want to learn how to take care of my body and supplement the calories from healthy food options in order to maintain a healthy weight.  I want to talk with the nutrition team today.  We'll see how that goes...

In other news, I've already faced one fear today.  I was bold enough to ask for my weight (a big step).  Throughout this process, I've been hesitant and fearful to ask because I've been terrified of what they might tell me.  Remember, the mirrors lie!  First, the doctor asked what I thought my weight was, so I told her a number.  Let's just say I must be pretty delusional.  

The next fear I must face today is my "fear food" of the day, aka Nutter Butters.  Wish me luck.

"To those who ground me, take a message back from me. Tell them how I am defying gravity"
-- Wicked

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