Reflecting on yesterday's misery, I promised myself to put the day to rest and look ahead to tomorrow. Well, it's tomorrow and so far, so good. As I recalled, I do believe I am my worst enemy, therefore, as the Dalai Lama suggested, I am my best teacher. Because I believe everything happens for a reason, I try to learn from my thoughts, emotions and actions. This morning, I woke up and smiled, just like yesterday. I stood in front of the mirror, however unlike yesterday I just stood there, staring at my reflection as if it were an alien, and observed. I didn't become anxious, I refused to let Ed interfere-- I just observed what I saw in the moment. No, I'm not perfect, but would I want to be? Even if there wasn't an omniscient higher being, perfectionism would bore me. What would I have to work towards, to learn from and to aspire to? Not one part of my body looked perfect this morning, so I breathed in. And out. Then continued with my morning. For breakfast I made an egg, including ketchup and hot sauce(duh), alongside Fiber 1 Clusters, Vanilla Soy Milk, cinnamon raisin swirl, and coffee. To incorporate the EDU in my daily routines, I also set a goal-- I suggest this for everyone. Setting a goal keeps you grounded and in the moment throughout the day. My goal for today is to not dwell on what i can not change. Acceptance is crucial in life. As I accepted my reflection this morning, I will also accept whatever may come my way as I embrace this rainy Saturday.
After breakfast I went to the gym. For the first time in over 3 months. Despite some anxiety, I was able to make it to the locker room without eying the prey that surrounded me. I did, however compare myself to myself-- but that's only natural, right? After a brief run, I jumped in the pool and let out a sigh of relief. Pools are the one place I feel invincible. I feel powerful, weightless and like a bird (minus the search for prey). I swam and all thoughts subsided, except the thoughts of myself as an invincible bird-- Silly, I know, but I'll go with whatever allows me to feel free.
I challenge you to not only set a goal for the day, but to look in the mirror and notice one thing you love about yourself. It does not have to be physical, though it can, but the positivity may be about a personality trait or behavior. And smile at the mirror, I promise it will smile back.
"There are moments when one feels free from one's own identification with human limitations and inadequacies. At such moments one imagines that one stands on some spot of a small planet, gazing in amazement at the cold yet profoundly moving beauty of the eternal, the unfathomable; life and death flow into one, and there is neither evolution nor destiny; only Being." - Albert Einstein