" I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' "
Perhaps I should be immersed in a bubble bath reading the story of Alice in Wonderland-- I suspect Alice and I have much in common. Right now I feel overwhelmed. Physically, I'm at one stage as I scramble to complete my exchanges everyday in desperation to go back to school. However, three steps back, one can find my mentality. I've been so caught up with hype about school and potential IOPs, that I haven't had a minute to check in with myself (mentally, that is). Though most of my days are spent in a quiet, empty house, I'm hardly alone. Family, friends, my crackberry and the internet make certain I am in constant contact. There are deadlines, benchmarks and goals that must be met in order for me to return to U Pitt. This what recovery on speed must feel like. I'm exhausted, confused and troubled by the accelerated path I am on. I need time alone to think. Really think.. And I think I'm shutting down.
(Courtesy of weheartit.com)
Who am I-- right now?