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Sunday, January 31, 2010

Speech of Self-Introduction

I've been M.I.A. recently (though I promise I'm still reading blogs), mostly because I'm busy-- which is definitely a good thing. I strive off of to-do lists, schedules and structure, and the less busy I am, the less motivated I am to get things done.  The following is an excerpt from a speech I have prepared for my public speaking class.  For the assignment, students were asked to find a newspaper article from the day they were born and construct a brief speech concentrated on why it resonates with their personality or experience.


""To be nobody but yourself in a world that's doing its best to make you somebody else, is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight.  Never stop fighting." The powerful words of E.E. Cummings resonate with both a New York Times article on the war in Afghanistan and my life.  On May 16, 1988, Soviet troops were pulled out of Afghanistan and sent back to their families and their lives. On that same day, I was brought into the world, thus began my life.  Growing up, I faced a multitude of challenges-- both academically and personally. Yet with each circumstance, I found the strength to defeat the enemy, feeling like my mission was complete. However, much like the war in Afghanistan, I would later discover that though a battle had been won, the war was far from over.  Everyday I struggle to invade and successfully defeat the demons in my mind.  I must always be prepared for unexpected events, thoughts, feelings and emotions and make sure it is truly me reacting and not the enemy.  Since the 1970's Afghanistan has been punctuated by foreign occupations, including the 1979 Soviet invasion and the 2001 US-led invasion in attempts to overthrow the Taliban government.  The significance of this article reminds me that life is a journey through which the unexpected happens--irony is a norm and the unpredictable will happen.  Captain Shevelov exclaimed, "All wars are terrible.  We have completed our mission and now we are glad to return to our homes."  21 years have passed and foreign power has struggled to bring peace to Afghanistan and for 21 years I have struggled to bring peace into my own life."


I guess this speech really resonates with how I feel at the current moment.  I love the life of a student, program intern at Hillel, caregiver for the most precious girl, roommate and friend.  However, there are unexpected events that trigger thoughts and behaviors-- that trigger my demons.  But I'm still fighting, still finding my way through the journey to my Emerald City. And I'm ok.

Blogs remind me of the potential each and every individual possess.  As I read, I often wonder, 'when will this rock star recognize her (or his) potential?' The thought provoked yet another (shocker). While studying at the library, I came across a widely accepted theory in psychology.  The theory states that all human beings are born with a predispositions for certain behaviors and/or disorders, but it's the environment that triggers whether or not the genetic influence will be expressed.  I am confident that every beautiful soul behind the computer screen will have their 'aha' moment.  Don't give up, the time will come when it's meant to.  Trust the process-- the journey that we call life.  I won't give up and I'll keep reading, and writing, for continuous inspiration.

Our Hearts, They Beat and Break.

20 comments:

  1. you are a beautiful writer and you are truly inspirational. i love psychology and agree completely with that theory! so glad you are still reaidng :) hope things are going well

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  2. beautiful speech. i can only imagine how wonderfully you spoke the emotion in it.
    i keep finding that life is triggering, the more i live the more potential triggers i face. it's scary but i too will not give up.
    glad to hear you're okay :) & keeping busy & keeping your head up
    happy sunday love!
    xoxo
    ps--hope you my little video for you on your fbook wall ;)

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  3. thank you for this post <3
    beautiful speech.. and insightful words.. I am waiting for my Aha moment .
    xo

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  4. such a great writer! speeches are not easy to write, glad you were able to get those thoughts out and that they really resonate with where you are right now.

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  5. I'm like you -- I thrive on being busy. I get way less done when I have more free time, if that makes sense.

    I agree with that psychology theory that environment triggers genetic dispositions. I've been told that anorexia is like a wick waiting to be lit. In that sense, I think recovery is a wick waiting to be lit too. Lots of us have so much potential to tap into and enjoy :)

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  6. Oh, and the speech is awesome!

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  7. What a beautiful post. This really has me thinking. The E.E. Cummings quote is one of my favorites. Tried and True.

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  8. What a brilliant assignment and you tackled it so beautifully.
    Hope and trust are so important.

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  9. hey! aw this was such an amazing post. you are really talented! it was such a beautiful speech full of strength and positivity(: happy february! xoxo soph

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  10. I, too, PRAY that every blogger sees their true potential. I wish everyone could see how beautiful and wonderful they are. You included ;)

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  11. What an inspiring post and speech! And about seeing the potential: you should see it in yourself too, because there's SO MUCH in you! Have a great week girl!

    xxx Julia (Taste of Living)

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  12. i get that feeling about many bloggers too, and that list includes you! reading your posts, it's so easy to see your intelligence and writing talent - not everyone has that.

    i remember studying that theory in psychology - i'm pretty sure i could philosophize about it for hours. it's an interesting (and very valid) way to look at life).

    keep on keeping on! :)

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  13. I love that exert from your speech. And your second thought of everyone's 'Ah Ha! moment' I had a math teacher in like 5th grade who told us that everyone had that moment when trying to understand concepts in the subject. I guess life is like that though, you have to have that moment where you truly realize your potential. Although people tell you what you can do and how great you are, it never really resonates until you figure it out yourself.

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  14. You have so so much talent, and this speech is so beautifully true to heart. <3
    Im glad you realize that you are so much more than your disorder, and pray that it will some day completely dwindle from your life. In the mean time stay strong, and focus on your many many talents, have wonderful evening! Glad you posted again!! <3 <3

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  15. terrific speech! would love to read more.

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  16. Your writing never ceases to inspire and amaze me... You're quite the rockstar yourself! I've yet to have that lightbulb aha moment, but am telling myself that it's just around the corner. ;)
    I hope you liked the song and that it provided some inspiration. <3

    Rachael*

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  17. you are beautiful..love you girl!

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  18. thanks for the comment. I really appreciate that you took the time to read my blog. I'm inspired by you all the time. I'm so glad I found your blog a while ago. I hope school is going well.

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  19. I am the same way. When I am busy and have a schedule, my mind is in such a better and happier place. I do not know what to do when there is nothing to do. Boredom is definately dangerous for me!
    I sincerely hope that you know you are a rock star and that you recognize how amazing you are. I love reading your posts and I get very excited when there is a new one to read! Such beautiful words (truly).

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  20. Wow! Your speech sounds awesome. Wish I could hear it. I also see so much potential in the blog world and hope that bloggers will both recognize it and seize the opportunity to use it to make a difference in the world.

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