Because you just don't know.
Every single beautiful human being is different. Our past experiences help construct who we are and how we view the world. As a blogger and admirer, I must remember that for as much respect and dignity I have for the bloggers I follow, I am in a different place in my life, and that I can not compare my situation with another's.
Personally, I would not be this far in eating disorder recovery if it weren't for the support and motivation of the blogging community. Such men and women show me how empowering being strong really is. Your blogs motivate me to lead a healthy, happy and strong life-- which I can only have if I take care of myself. More specifically, being featured in Caitlin Boyle's book, Operation Beautiful, has forever impacted my life. It showed me how the power of words can affect someone's perspective on themselves and on life-- and that one voice really can make such a significant difference in this world. Since its release, I have vowed to commit myself to my recovery so that I can, one day, help others, who may share similar struggles and experiences. So, rather than be angry and spiteful for having an eating disorder, I
must use this experience to guide the path of my life, remembering, "You can't change the cards you are dealt, just how you play the hand" (Randy Pausch).
This post was constructed as a response to the hype surrounding the recent article posted in Marie Claire magazine. Upon reading it, I immediately became defensive. How dare someone try to portray what it's like for someone to have an eating disorder? How dare someone write about the superficialities surrounding such a daunting and deadly illness? I was appalled and I was hurt, until I remembered a tid-bit that I always share with others: "Take what others say with a grain of salt". Why is it so hard to take your own advice?! I stood up from my computer and took a walk with hopes of clearing my mind. Thank goodness it worked, and I was able to calm down. Rather than over-react I must remain sensitive. Unless you, personally, have had an eating disorder, you'll never know. I can not put it any more simply not bluntly, and I mean this with the utmost respect for those who care. You just won't know. What's more, we must remember that anyone can skew any bit of information to make their story a success. After all, the media is not synonymous with 'fact'-- let us not forget.
Before all defense mechanisms become in tact, I urge myself to be more sensitive and appreciative for those who do try to support eating disorder awareness and recovery, even though they just won't know.