I would be lying if I said, "I am recovered." Context is everything. Am I physically healthy? Yes, I am healthy and have been for over a year at this point. Am I happy? Yes, I have been blessed with the most beautiful family and friends. So, I suppose one could conclude that from the outside looking in I am indeed healthy and happy.
But while the outside looks clear, the storms still brew inside. It would not be just if I described my thoughts and feeling on this blog though, because ultimately, I am the only one who has the power to clear the skies. How I think about myself. How I feel about myself. The anxiety and insecurity that cuts down to the core is all internal work now. Don't get me wrong, life is indeed wonderful and I am grateful for where I am and all I have. But, what darkness is left can only be brightened by my own work.
Perhaps one day when I'm finally, finally, there and not here I will share. But for now it would only be of selfish means.
To be honest, I think it's time that this blog finally reaches its end. I want to thank everyone who has taken the time to read this, especially those who have reached out and offered their support. I can honestly say that without it I would not have gotten to this point and I continue to be overwhelmed and humbled by the strength of the blogging community.
For those who continue to need a voice, an ear, or a hug-- I am always here and can be reached at Remail@example.com.
Au revior & stay in purple,